| Subtle. |
[Jan. 8th, 2010|10:35 pm] |
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place.
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| When you find you, come back to me. |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|10:44 pm] |
I feel like all these while I've be compromising my happiness with the worldly things I choose to possess, the people I want to love and hate, a persona I strive to be even if it means losing the identity I grew up with. It's like wanting to keep everything but yet willing to let go and be free of the exhaustion. At the end of the day I'm only stuck with the depression of wanting everything and not having anything. Wish there was a way out of this.
Maybe there already is. |
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| Anywhere but Home |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|01:59 pm] |
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Home to me is not where my bed is, where my clothes are, where my family sleeps under the same roof. Home to me is where I feel comfortable in, where I feel happy, where I feel safe and nothing bad can penetrate through. Home was your heart. I lost my way back into it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 6th, 2010|01:02 am] |
1) Staying at home for a day is really boring and the boredom is killing me.
2) My mouth is in pain. I can't open it up to 5cm wide.
3) My sister and mum cannot stop making fun of my swollen cheeks. Sigh
4) I really need to do my nails and pamper myself.
5) Quite nervous to go out with a swollen face. And I hope the swelling goes down tom.
6) I had a difficult time sleeping last night.
7) I have a hugeeeeee ulcer which looks like a country on the globe, just that it isn't painful.
8) I keep tasting blood in my mouth and it's tastes so awful.
9) There was this cockroach look alike insect which flew into the room just now and I was so scared. I had to wake my dad up to kill it for me. Heh heh
10) Cannot stop feeling sad whenever I think about my swollen cheek. |
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| Be still my heart |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|08:56 pm] |
"I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the-
the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being-
Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me."
one of my all-time favourite quotes. even though the movie doesn't seem very appealing.
I think it’s pretty much impossible to forget someone who was once the reason for the smile on your face.
You can't just forget someone like that.
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| Steps to achieve a perfect MTV ending: |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|02:39 am] |
1) Wear a monkey suit
2) Give out leaflets
3) Stop giving out leaflets
4) Go to destination on hand-drawn map, attached is a photo of a man with a not so flattering moustache
5) Miss a train stop
6) Reach destination to find out man with no so flattering moustache isn't appearing
7) Sad face :(
8) Walk until you bump into a cute guy in a cow suit
9) Love at 1st sight
10) Go to lakeside, or anywhere picturesque with the warm setting sun in sky
11) Kiss, make sure sun is captured inbetween lips
12) THAT'S A WRAP!
I need a seemingly functional paper watch. |
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| When men fails. |
[Jan. 2nd, 2010|03:47 pm] |
Humans are such needy creatures. We spend our entire lives fighting with each other so that someone else will tell us that we’re important, that we’re needed, that we’re valuable, that we’re the best. It’s as if we have no idea who we are or why we’re here but we still need to be reassured that our existence matters, that we matter. When other people don’t appropriately affirm us, we get offended. How could they not see how important we are? We set about proving to everyone that we are valuable in many ways. Some people acquire things, some acquire knowledge or position. Some need others to be dependent on them and some pretend like they need no one. All of these things are able to give momentary affirmation, but when the moment fades we’re back at square one, needing someone else to tell us who we are. We want to feel wanted. We want to feel appreciated. We want to feel loved. But we can’t create those feelings by ourselves; these feelings only exist in relationship. So, we set about trying to have community, trying to have relationship, trying to find our identities. Sadly, all we seem to find are cheap substitutes. Our shallowness has caused us to ration out affection and devotion, replacing things meant to be unconditional with “ifs” and “buts.”
1 John 3:1 excitedly tells us “How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!” We no longer need to struggle with insecurities. We are children of the Most High, heirs to the universe, and loved and cared for by the Creator and Savior of all.
When we are plugged in, when we are told by God who we are, we no longer have to ration out love and affirmation to others. The storehouses of God are full of these things. We can always get more. We can love and love freely, because love is infinite. God is infinite and God is love. We have an infinite supply flowing to us. Sparing a bit of it for someone else is easy when we’re no longer afraid we’re going to run out. We can be patient, kind, without envy, never boastful, never proud, never rude, never self-seeking, and never easily angered. We can keep no record of wrongs done to us and never wish evil on others. We can always protect and trust others, hope and persevere. Before 1 Corinthians 13 tells us what love is, chapter 12 speaks in an often overlooked verse. It reads, “And now I will show you the most excellent way” (verse 31). We can live constantly in the most excellent way – love.
This love, this beautiful, wild, indescribable love can be ours. We can know who we are. Instead of something miserable or angry or sad, we can say with Emily Logan Decens, “Happiness pulses with every beat of my heart.” And it will be an infinite happiness based on an infinite love that we can infinitely share with everyone we come in contact with because it will never run out.
Because God never runs out.
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| Y2K + 10 |
[Jan. 1st, 2010|10:12 am] |
Last year didn't end the way it should have;
this year didn't start the way it could have. |
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| intangible |
[Dec. 31st, 2009|04:16 am] |
2009 sucked (probably just an understatement)
broken hearts/heart broken.
i'm happy i have my friends to lepak with. here's to more hobo nights guys.
(i will never attempt to open your gate again)
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when i was 12, i wished you were here. but i'm not 12 anymore. there has to be one point where i stop wishing for things that aren't bound to happen.
so with no resolutions made, happy new year in advance.
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| Auld Lang Syne |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|03:04 pm] |
I can't lie and say 2010 would be a much better year than 2009 because this year wasn't all that bad. Life will always have its ups and downs, and yes I have had pretty downer periods this year but it didn't mean I didn't enjoy the happy times I gained in moments. It's only hard to remember and appreciate because of all the uneasy things we want to change. Pain is a leech. But pain can dissolve.
I'd like to bid farewell to the year that had broken me, loved me, and more importantly, allowed me to survive officially 17 years and 9 months of plenty of life's tumultuous adventures. I salute you 2009, you made me grow up a little bit more.
As usual, to what lies in 2010, we can only guess and hope for the best. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|12:09 am] |
My mum told me she bought a whole tin of biscuits cuz she "could no longer keep up with the rate I finish biscuits".
Yeah! :B |
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[Dec. 29th, 2009|12:03 am] |
Today was a gud day! Tanning failed once again, why am I not surprised? Meeting my fee & em again tom for a really really budget day out. Heh heh. Alvin and the chipmunks sucks ttm. I would advise anyone who isn't interested in childish show not to watch it. The first time I heard the chipmunks sank, I had goosebumps cos it was soooo high. Harhar I slept during the show. Yes, it was that boring. It's the first movie I ever fell asleep in my life. Catching Princess and the Frog tom, finallyyyyyy!!!!!! Can't wait.
I love you Fee & Em. I know both of you will see this.
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| There's no place like nowhere. |
[Dec. 27th, 2009|03:09 am] |
Back from the U S of A! I wished I could have bundled up some American lovin' back home with me but when I was there I wished I could bundled up my Singaporean living and packed it along. We all can't get what we want, can we? Heheh anyway I'm glad to be back! Missing Christmas was a huuuge bummer but the memories of my virgin America trip shall compensate, somewhat. I'm also certain I ate enough American breakfast bacon strips (those crispy devils!) to suffer a clogged artery. Yum yum in me tum tum!
It's gonna be 2010 and I don't have any resolutions yet! Maybe I should start by having REAL interest in my studies. And get back closer to God. And exercise. Yep.
Oh yeah! And be much much better at scooping ice-cream! HAHA.
Happy Holidays! :D |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 27th, 2009|01:22 am] |
   
It was a bad hair day.........
Life has been pretty good to me and I like it just the way it is. I keep telling myself to run but tomorrow never ever comes. Instead, the process of sleeping the whole day takes place instead. Yes, I am a pig. I know i know. Off with Gossip girls now. |
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